make your way to me, and i'll always be just so inviting

i'm getting so bored with summer.
i miss the rain
and i miss feeling cold.

the only bad thing is that i think i'm going to really miss having someone to hang on to during the cold weather.
:(
i guess i'm feeling really nostalgiac right now.
i want letting go to be easy
but more than that, i want to not have to let go at all.

i guess i don't have a choice though.

well i'm running out of things to say.
i'm going to finish watching Survivorman,
straighten my hair
and go to sleep.

I'll see you in the morning, PCC.
:(



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is this how it feels when you don't even fit into your own skin?

i finished my book tonight.
it was really good.
Alice Hoffman has never let me down, and i'm glad.

Right now I have to use the bathroom and clean up my bed
but I'm kinda lazy.

I feel like i'm at a point in my life where I'm just dying to meet someone knew
or hang out with someone new.
I realize that there are so many people around me who are complete strangers
and everyone has a story.
everyone has some wisdom to share,
it's incredible.

i want to be more daring in life
and if i see a cute boy
i want to have the courage to tell him that i think he's cute.
taking risks is kind of scary
but i'm excited to see what is out there.

well i think i'm running out of things to say.
it's late and i'm having some pretty interesting conversations.

i'm excited to heal my heart
and see what life has to offer.



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i'll suffocate if i don't take in some air

i haven't written in a while.
my life hasn't been too eventful lately.
a lot of things with danny went ridiculously sour
and getting over it is going to take some time
but we'll see.
i know i'll get better
but it will take some time.

on thursday i'm going to go to a party for Climate Change.
I'm super duper excited for that.
I think like 15 people are giong so far.
I really want Eric to go with me, I told him about the party
but he hasn't gotten back to me about it.
Oh well.
If not, maybe Samantha will go with me.
I wouldn't mind going alone either.

I bought a book from Target yesterday.
It's called The Ice Queen and it's by Alice Hoffman.
I wasn't sure about buying it before but Alice Hoffman has nevr let me down.
I've read two of her books already:
The River King and Here on Earth.
They were really good books.

Right now i'm watching Africa's Last Eden on National Geographics.
It's so sad that people kill elephants for their ivory.
It's one of the most disgusting, destructive thing that people can do.
I really hate how self-centered humans beings are.
We share this planet with so many other creatures,
and with all due respect, they have seniority over us.
I think because of that, we owe them a huge amount of respect,
more respect than what we're showing them now.

Anyway, i'm rambling.
Thanks for reading.



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i'm about to do all of the things i've dreamed of and i don't even miss you at all

goodbye forever danny.
i am done with you.
thank you for completely fucking up my feelings
and destroying my heart.
i guess i have my work cut out for me.

but i'll tell you this much,
i know i will be okay!
i'm going to be just fine
all i need is some time and support.
trust me,
i'll be on my feet again in no time
and i'll have my head on straight.

i'm going to be just fine
and i am going to forget all about you

i hope you're happy now,
'cause you lose.



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