friends, lovers, or nothing

how many more years
am i going to keep selling myself short?
how long until i build up the strength
to let myself be truely happy?

if your hand is closed,
it is not open to receive.




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disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak

Today is Valentine's Day.
Didn't really do much.
I had breakfast with the family, it was good.
Except the fact that some street vendor across the street
thought it would be a good business move to play awful music from his stupid booth.
Aaand the fact that the people behind us thought it would be a good idea
to play little bits and pieces of ranchero music on a random accordian.

I went to my grandparent's house after that.
It was good.
Didn't really do much except read Jurassic Park.
It's a really good book. I've been reading it all day.

In terms of romance and chocolate and flowers and cards and nice gestures,
nothing really going on there because according to someone,
doing stuff like that on Valentine's Day is too "cliché."
Looks like i'm spending Valentine's Day with Michael Crichton and Wendy's.
Fantastic.



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a kiss in the shape of a bullet

using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can't use the artist I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!

Pick your Artist: “Glassjaw”

Are you a male or female:
"Babe"

Describe Yourself:
“Trailer Park Jesus”

How do you feel:
“Pretty Lush”

Describe where you currently live:
“Motel of White Locust”

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
”Mu Empire”

Your Favorite form of Transportation:
“Must Have Run All Day”

Your Best Friend is:
“Her Middle Name Was Boom”

You and your best friend are:
“Hurting and Shoving”

Favorite Time of Day:
“When One Eight Becomes Two Zeros”

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
“Everything You Ever Wanted To Know About Silence”

Your last relationship:
"Lovebites and Razorlines"

Your fear:
“Cosmopolitan Blood Loss”

What is the best advice you have to give:
”Tip Your Bartender”

Thought for the day:
“You Think You're John Fucking Lennon”

How I would like to die:
“Two Tabs of Mescaline”

good day sunlight, i'd like to say how truely bright you are

hello my blog.
it has been so long.
i don't really know what to write.
i think maybe i've lost my voice,
i used to write so much.
not that anybody reads my blog anyway.
but who knows...maybe that'll change.

honestly, the reason why i decided to dust off my blog
and write a new post
is because nick from work left me his link on my facebook
(and there i was thinking it was him actually talking to me, ha!)
and i guess it inspired me to write something again.
thanks a lottttttttt nick. (not that you'll read this!)

i've been feeling a little unproductive lately.
school doesn't start for about a week and a half,
and there is just nooooo work at borders. hooray.
i've been really tempted to buy a wordsearch book from work.
i know i still have the one i bought when danny and i broke up
but i think it's at jessica's. ugh.

maybe that's why i'm finding it so difficult to write anything.
i haven't really done shit except go hiking and work twice a week.
i'm really hungry...

maybe i need a hobby.
i should start writing again.
like, really writing though.
i miss the feeling.
well i am a very hungry girl.
time to hunt for food in the kitchen.




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